PGD Results

I would have had this posted sooner but after i typed it on my iphone on Wednesday afternoon whilst sitting at the airport my iphone had a little tantrum and the whole post was lost whilst i was trying to post it. After an emotional few days it was almost enough to tip me over the edge completley so i didn't bother retyping it in case the same thing happened again.

So my results were fantastic. All that stressing, freaking out and tears were for nothing because so far (fingers crossed) everything is going to plan. I got to see the PGD scientist first who gave me my results:

2 - affected embryos (these were male because only males get affected)
2 - carrier embryos (these were females because they don't get affected but pass it on - e.g me)
4 - not affected embryos (boys and girls but i didn't ask how many of each)

I'm stoked with that. As you can see though this genetic disease which i am a carrier of is quite strong with half my embryos either affected or carriers.

Next came the embryologist who told me all about my embryos. The one that was going in was a hatching blastocyst and doing absolutley everything they want it to do. According to the emrbryologist is looks perfect! Not sure how i feel about that. Part of me got super excited then the Joanne who has had so many tranfers I'm almost running out of fingers to count them on emerged and i started to panic. Thoughts like "oh god if this embryo is perfect and everything they want it to be and it doesn't stick than what chances do i have of ever falling pregnant." I guess this is the emotional infertile who lacks self confidence in their body doing the most natural thing in the world, that it continues to fail at - coming out.

Anyway my FS gave the embryo a good talking to and told it we have done enough mucking around and now we want a baby. Lightened the mood of him between my legs with a giant needle containing my perfect precious embryo.

So here i am 2 days post transfer and doing everything possible to not obsess about this TWW. My blood test is due next friday the 14th. I will have to wait to the Saturday to do my blood test though as i start my new job on Monday and the pathology lab is an hour and a half from work one way and doesn't open till 7.30am and i start work at 8am.

I am surprisingly calm though. I'm excited to be spending my TWW focussing on my new job instead of obsessing over every niggle and twinge and visiting Dr Google! Af usually arrives before my blood test and i just hope with all my heart that she stays away and this time i get my take home baby.